She loved him like he was
The last man on Earth
Gave him everything she ever had
He’d break her spirit down
Then come lovin’ up to her
Give a little, then take it back
She’d tell him about her dreams
He’d just shoot ’em down
Lord he loved to make her cry
“You’re crazy for believin’
You’ll ever leave the ground”
He said, “Only angels know how to fly”
And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye on the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you ought to see her fly
One Sunday morning
She didn’t go to church
He wondered why she didn’t leave
He went up to the bedroom
Found a note by the window
With the curtains blowin’ in the breeze
And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye on the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you ought to see her fly
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you ought to see her fly
I try so very hard not to look back on my previous ‘life’ with negative thoughts but must admit sometimes it’s tough not to! I prefer to concentrate my thoughts on the now and with my wonderful husband Simon and the friends I am so very fortunate to have in my life.
Last night we were sitting listening to our favourite music tracks and Simon played one that has a particular place in my heart. It was a song I used to listen to when I was in my previous marriage, when I felt there was no way out. I would imagine myself flying away, having the freedom to spend time with my friends, to chat on the phone, to read books and to be able to have fun. To be able to be excited and not have my dreams mocked, not to be in trouble over everything I ever did or said. To be able to be me.
I used to lay in bed at night wondering how I could leave. I would envisage a life so removed from that which I had, but which I always thought was unattainable.
My ex-husband and I had been to Calgary in Canada and were staying with one of his business associates and his very lovely and spiritual wife, when, very strangely, whilst driving along in the back of the car, my wedding ring had literally and inexplicably broken into pieces. His wife was stunned and as she was already aware that my marriage was not wonderful, but not to the extent it actually was, she said that it was definitely a sign that it was beyond repair.
She and her husband were coming over to England just a couple of weeks later and she and I had arranged to go and see Diana Garland who offered astrological and clairvoyant readings. I had met Diana years before at a spiritual event and had been most impressed. She went for her reading first and was really pleased when she came out, saying how accurate Diana had been. I went in for my reading not expecting that I would hear anything particularly life changing, but I was in for a big surprise. I had always kept my marital problems to myself but Diana certainly picked up on them, and in her gentle and guiding way she explained that my chart showed that a massive change was about to happen in my life. She told me that if I didn’t make a decision very soon the chance would be gone and I would be stuck in my life for always. The very next morning, I actually came to the decision to risk everything and leave.
I drove over 50 miles across country, down narrow lanes, weaving my way across the countryside to my sister’s house. I drove my car but felt as if I was flying, knowing that no matter what happened I would never go back, knowing that at last I would not be spending my life living in fear. I had never felt spirit so close to me as that morning, I felt a golden light surrounding my little car and me, a safety bubble that nothing could penetrate. For the first time in over 25 years I felt totally safe. It was the most incredible feeling.
I had not been able to be in contact with my twin sister very much as he had objected to our relationship (gulp – how can that possibly be?) so I had no idea that she and her husband and their six children were about to move. We decided that we would find somewhere where we could all move together and my sister and I went all over the country looking at properties before settling on a house in Hampshire.
When I spoke to my friend Susan Roberts, a wonderful psychic medium from Barnstaple who started the English Psychic Company, she told me that within a few months I would be meeting my soul mate, but wouldn’t actually see him – I wondered how on earth that could be! She said that we would be made for each other and would be living together within six months of meeting. I had known Susan for several years and knew that her predictions were generally spot on but couldn’t quite believe what she was saying. It all sounded too good to be true.
Shortly after moving to Hampshire I attended a weeks residential course at the Arthur Findlay College in Stanstead. I booked a private mediumship reading with the tutor Simone Key whom I had never met before. As soon as walked in the room, and before I had even sat down, she said ‘my goodness you’ve just left a relationship after over 25 years’. Talk about accurate! She went on to tell me that I would shortly meet a fantastic young man who was my soul mate. She said I would have a life full of fun and laughter with him and that he would support me in everything. I was just a little amazed after an almost identical reading from Susan. I couldn’t wait!
Whenever people tell you that you have a fabulous future ahead of you it does take some getting used to. I still didn’t quite understand how I could meet someone but not see them though. That really confused me. Little did I know then that I would join an internet dating site and meet the most lovely man who didn’t put his photo on the site!
How incredibly organised spirit was. I look back now and see that from the moment my wedding ring broke everything was in place to put me on my new pathway. I was given the confidence to make life changing decisions safe in the knowledge that spirit were with me, guiding me through the readings from the most genuine people. I felt that I had a promise of a new life … just waiting round the corner.
Tomorrow, Simon and I will be celebrating our FIFTH wedding anniversary! We’ve known each other just over seven years now and my life with him is just as foretold. I adore being his wife, his friend, his playmate, his love.
He has accepted me totally for who I am. I am just me …. and there are no words in the world to describe how unbelievable that is. To be loved and love is heaven and I count my blessings every day. Thank you!
P.S. (Can you have a PS on a blog?)
Funnily enough, whilst writing this post I had a break about ten minutes ago and found a lovely post in my inbox which confirmed everything I already knew! How spirit likes to make certain we get the point!! Please take a look … her blogs are great! http://complexmuse.wordpress.com/2012/03/13/show-your-soul-to-attract-your-soul-mate/
http://www.englishpsychiccompany.com/
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